CenterPoint Vs. Powerless Customers

WE the powerless citizens of Houston, Texas are truly powerless.  I am not talking about the people with downed trees or objects on the broken power lines but the people who just need a transformer.

WE the powerless citizens of Houston have called and begged CenterPoint Energy only to be told that a generator will be installed the next day.  We have been misled lied to by customer service. 

One of the crews told us in the neighborhood that it would be October before a crew could get over here to install a transformer.  He told us to call the Texas Public Utility Commission.

We really have no other options for electric power.  There are no windmills or solar options for us.  WE need another option.  We are truly more powerless than we ever imagined.

Message to School Boards

All school districts should some type of public access at all times.  It is not fair to taxpayers to have to search and scratch for a meeting place for non-profit children’s organization.

Parents you are the tax payor’s.  There should never be kids wondering the streets after school hours.  We already have a place for the kids.

FEMA Advised Me To Contact The Red Cross For Additional Help…Shame On You

Yesterday, I finally got an answer from FEMA regarding a claim for Hurricane Ike.  I got a really nice 20 page packet that explained to me that my family qualified for “ARC”.  That acronym stands for American Red Cross.   I would never think of contacting the Red Cross.  The Red Cross helps the people who have absolutely nothing.  They are a hard-working charitable organization for the poor not a gov’t backup plan.  Shame on you FEMA.  Shame on you for dumping that ice 150 miles from Houston.  There were many people without power for over two weeks (including me).  It really cut into our little budget to buy $6 worth of ice a day just so my kids could have milk and cold wter.

We spent money we did not have on food.  Silly of me to expect too much.  I guess everyone kept thinking about Katrina and thought that at least we would get a block of cheese.  [I remember gov't cheese from when I was 4.  That was some great tasting cheese. ]

Lesson learned:  Have a plan.  Don’t wait on the government.  Thank goodness we were able to pay bills after losing so much money on food and gas.  CenterPoint never issued an apology or a credit.  They kept right on charging.

Our back-up plan when the powe goes out next time:  Amish county here we come with our solar panels.

7 hours before Hurricane Ike in Houston TX

Yea Obama wins! Wonder what Michelle Obama’s Old Roommate Thinks Now After She Ran Away From Her

Wonder what that old roommate is thinking about as she watches Mrs. Obama become first lady.

The same incident happened to me at Stephen F Austin State University.  The Resident Assistants told me upon registration that they had to put a “b” by my name so that a white girl would not be assigned to be my roommate.  The RA told me that white parents did not want their daughters having to dorm room with a black girl.  In my second year at college, a white girl was assigned to be my roommate.  She was outta there in a week and a half.  I know in my heart that is why she transferred out of the room( I always took a shower and kept my side of the room clean).  Of course, this was a time back in 1987 in a small southern town called Nacogdoches, Texas.

I was hurt.  After the white roommate, I got a black roommate who told me that I was not black enough, that I listened to “white” music and had to many “white” friends (I ate lunch 3x with two white people).  As a 19 year-old girl from a small town in East Texas I was hurting everyday.  The only option that saved me was moving out of the dorm into a small roach-ridden apartment.  I received no support from parents or relatives.  I worked at a car wash washing cars by hand to make the rent.  I think both races beat me down.  To this day I have a hard time in the workplace because I am so anxious about what everyone thinks of me.  You better believe that this anxiety affects me today in every way.  It is no ones fault.  We are our own greatest mental enemy.  Times have really changed.

It is a mixed up world and I am so grateful that the world is changing.  All of this is amazing to me.  I think I still worry that “white” people look at me and want to puke.  I also worry that black people look at me and want to puke and scream “oreo”  I cannot win.

My kids will win and be happy!  Poo to you yucky people!

To Sleep

Now I lay me down to sleep.  I took three of a med I only take 1.  When I meet the lord I will ask him why I was here.  My son and daughter must be in line to save the world otherwise why would I be born.

Did Mary ever question her existence?  Did anyone ever ask her why she did not have a career and why she was not earning any money?

I want to be paid to do what I do.  Take care of my family and assist my kids with homework.  I really don’t care about trying to make people like me who will never like me.  I am tired of trying.  My family is tired of seeing me punish me.   I keep trying to make myself better but all I do is struggle in quicksand.

But….the world is wonderful and it is wonderful to be alive.  I wish I could be alive like in a coma but still get to see the wonders of the world and life.  I don’t want to be a burden but be a person who admires life and those who are able to be normal and giving.  The world is a true beauty and work of art!

My Daughter Will Hate Me When She Grows Up

I can already see it in her eyes.  She will not understand me until I and old/dead.  Then she will find out she will experience the same problems.  There is no escape and I feel hopeless to help her.  She has that same stony dead expression on her face I carried for 18 years.  The only difference.  I had no parents.  No one ever touched me or told me that they loved me.   Nothing I did was ever celebrated.  I was always reminded by my grandmother that I better be happy that she had to even put up with me at all.

My husband is the best Dad bu will he be enough to erase what the impact of my broken personality will do and has done to the kids.  I wish I had 5 million dollars.  If I had the money I would run away and let him take care of them.  I can’t help them at all.

Madness is defined is knowing things are going wrong and not even understand what you did wrong and what you can do in the future to fix something to make it better.

Are College-Deegrees with Contacts Really Needed These Days

My husband and  I are not members of any power groups (churches, homeowners, companies, committiees).  I am an unemployed  college-educated (in major that is completely useless-Criminal Justice/Administrative Law-I deserve a refund from SFASU b/c they convinced me there were tons of legal assistant jobs) mom with no dependable after/before-school care (which means I have to clear enough money to pay for gas/daycare and still bring home enough to at least to cover the groceries and pay the $200 co-pay so my kids can get their teeth checked [BTW, I do have great dental insurance but the co-pays are eating us alive),  My husband is a truck-trucker hoping to get enough miles so we can pay our bills.   I know wah-wah-wah.

Should we even encourage our kids to go to college?  We have no contacts.   We live on the immigrant side of town ie this is a nice/great neighborhood but most of the people are first generation and are just happy to be in America.

I don’t know Obama, Biden, McCain or a Clinton (I would even take help from the Bush’s).  We don’t socialize b/c my husband works so hard and I have a social anxiety disorder where I tend to say stupid weird things.

Are our children stuck at a class level that cannot be overcome unless we make some high power contacts?  Plus why would anyone with any clout want to hang with us?

I just don’t want my kids spending a career working at Wal-Mar with credit card debt w/no medical coverage.

I did apply for a job in the xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  Just call be Mompacaleeza!

just some thoughts before I collapse into bed.

Value Of A Job

Having a job really makes you feel valuable.  I guess not having a job would be ok if I lived in France.  I am so lucky my husband is able to support us.  He is really a great husband and father.  I wish I had a job so that he could stay home with them.

My son got all 100s on his tests Friday.  My daughter related to everyone at the robot meeting that she was an artist.  I am proud.

Holiday Season Should Be Canceled

Holiday season should be canceled so that everyone can get a chance to breathe and decide within their own hearts what constitutes a celebration.

I will not be suggested this year to buy things for my kids that they cannot even imagine a year later.

I would love to be able to spend 6 weeks in a secluded cabin in the woods with me and my family.  Once a week we would trudge into town for gasoline and a few supplies.

Just a dream….

ABC News: WWYD Baby In a Hot Car….So Houston

Check out ABC New’s What Would You Do Series.  I think the episode about the baby locked in a car is so Houston.  If my memory serves me right there were about 2 cases of babies dying in hot cars last year in Houston.  Maybe this WWYD do is too serious.  It is like asking ” What Would You Do If You Saw A Murder Being Committed”.  Babies in hot cars is too scary.

Here is the link:

http://abcnews.go.com/whatwouldyoudo

LG Shine (expenside makeup mirror): My New Phone Is Fixed

LG Shine Fixed

My phone is back from the LG service center is no longer cracked like an egg.  It is fixed.  Now, I am too scared to used my talking make-up mirror…I mean phone.  I do believe the phone is way too fragile for me and my lifestyle.  The LG Shine is one of those phones for the cute sorority girls who carry their phone in a big handbag.  I am going to only use the LG when I know I want to take some 2.0 megapixel pictures to send to my husband on the road.   I will continue to use my husband’s 3 year-old Moto.  That Moto is tough.  I could put wheels on that puppy and call it a skateboard.

Thanks LG for the fast and prompt service.  At least you did not hassle me.  Your customer service department was courteous and fast.  Kudos to the LG service center in Fort Worth, Texas.

Spring Flowers in February

Header photo taken at the Texas AgriLife Extension Building while my kids and I were buying tomato plants. We are trying to grow a garden this year.  We have spend way too much on dirt, seeds and seedlings.

We are still hopeful that the Katy soil will yield some type of crop.

Yippee!

My Garden Is Coming Along

Corn To The Side

Cool I am schizoid, borderline pd and avoidant pd. How am I suppose to find a job.

I don’t want to be drugged up.  I need to find a job.  I don’t want charity or some stupid agency aid.  I want to make money for my family so my kids don’t see me as some stupid looser.  Yes, I have a college degree but I am do damn sensitive to everything.  I need to provide an honest living for my family.   How will I ever apologize to my kids for this.  If they could turn me into a cyborg and take away all of my emotions so that I could take care of my kids I would.  Just leave the love in tmy heart and take away all of these useless emotions that have messed up everything.   I have a clear mind and I know what responsibility is in the world.

No more meds that  knock me out.  I am mad at me for this affliction not at anyone else.  My Dr is doing the best she can.  I am glad I have a name for the dog that has been chasing me.

More power to the cyborg robots!

Fear of statues makes it impossible for me to visit Italy

I love pictures of Italy but my fear of statues makes it impossible for me to ever visit.  I love the frescoes, statues and fountains but they put a fear into my heart.  I am glad I live in an age where we have Flickr and the internet where I can live and see through others.

Today I Stopped Seroquel And I Am Better

One of the hallmarks of my disorder is the inability to feel joy or pleasure.  I want to live but be functional and not hurt others.  Money would free me.  I would never have to worry about dealing with people who did not understand that I have a disorder and that I can’t break through.  I have to support my family.  If I won money I would never tell my husband, it would destroy the straw house we exist in.  Balldjfldajslfjoew ro

I am having a hard time with the concept of life.

I want my kids to know that they never brought me any unhappiness and they had nothing to to with my bad choices.  I am finding out that something bigger than my own will exists inside of my head and I am growing tired of fighting.  You guys never have to like me just because I am your mother.  Great things are going to work out for you.  Just because I live my live a certain way does not mean you are doomed.  I am proud of you for sticking this out and know that it was and never will be your fault.  I should be able to teach you how to find peace of mind and I can’t.  I have no tools and I have tried.  You will be fine and make up your mind to be happy and roll with the snow.

Mom

Blogging Is Not For Wimps

Here I go trying to set-up my other blog.  It is hard work trying to figure out server issues, css issues and how to create banners.

I just need to make money.

LG Shine: My Opinion Before You Buy and Lipsticks Mirrors

Bought phone after 3 years with old Sony cell phone.  I could throw that phone into a brick wall and it would work.  I owned the LG Shine 6 weeks.  The screen cracked.  I did not throw or mishandle.  Is it coincidence?  Mishandling on my part?  Just bad luck?  It is written?

I mailed phone to LG in Fort Worth.  I will let you know what happened.

Phone is great if you need an extra mirror to put on lipstick.  I was not happy with phone before it cracked.  Now I am stuck for two years with a phone that is not really useful for a mom.  I am not happy.  The phone was free but I am locked into contract and broke.  Victim of consequences or just a victim????

Here is crime:

Why does every LG crack in same place?

Best Music To Listen To At Night

My picks for music at night:

Sade

Groove Theory

Sweetback

Nat King Cole

Fleetwood Mac