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Fear of statues makes it impossible for me to visit Italy

aznos4040 — Sun, 24 May 2009 05:41:02 +0000

I love pictures of Italy but my fear of statues makes it impossible for me to ever visit. I love the frescoes, statues and fountains but they put a fear into my heart. I am glad I live in an age where we have Flickr and the internet where I can live and see through others.

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Cool I am schizoid, borderline pd and avoidant pd. How am I suppose to find a job.

aznos4040 — Tue, 19 May 2009 04:44:34 +0000

I don’t want to be drugged up. I need to find a job. I don’t want charity or some stupid agency aid. I want to make money for my family so my kids don’t see me as some stupid looser. Yes, I have a college degree but I am do damn sensitive to everything. I need to provide an honest living for my family. How will I ever apologize to my kids for this. If they could turn me into a cyborg and take away all of my emotions so that I could take care of my kids I would. Just leave the love in tmy heart and take away all of these useless emotions that have messed up everything. I have a clear mind and I know what responsibility is in the world.

No more meds that knock me out. I am mad at me for this affliction not at anyone else. My Dr is doing the best she can. I am glad I have a name for the dog that has been chasing me.

More power to the cyborg robots!

Posted in Children Tagged: apd, borderline, careers, Moms, psychology

Today I Stopped Seroquel And I Am Better

aznos4040 — Sun, 17 May 2009 04:59:44 +0000

One of the hallmarks of my disorder is the inability to feel joy or pleasure. I want to live but be functional and not hurt others. Money would free me. I would never have to worry about dealing with people who did not understand that I have a disorder and that I can’t break through. I have to support my family. If I won money I would never tell my husband, it would destroy the straw house we exist in. Balldjfldajslfjoew ro

Posted in Children Tagged: borderline, schizoid, seroquel

I am having a hard time with the concept of life.

aznos4040 — Sat, 16 May 2009 05:19:41 +0000

I want my kids to know that they never brought me any unhappiness and they had nothing to to with my bad choices. I am finding out that something bigger than my own will exists inside of my head and I am growing tired of fighting. You guys never have to like me just because I am your mother. Great things are going to work out for you. Just because I live my live a certain way does not mean you are doomed. I am proud of you for sticking this out and know that it was and never will be your fault. I should be able to teach you how to find peace of mind and I can’t. I have no tools and I have tried. You will be fine and make up your mind to be happy and roll with the snow.

Mom

Posted in Children

My Garden Is Coming Along

aznos4040 — Wed, 25 Mar 2009 05:52:08 +0000

Corn To The Side

Posted in Children Tagged: gardening corn houston tx march

Blogging Is Not For Wimps

aznos4040 — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 06:26:45 +0000

Here I go trying to set-up my other blog. It is hard work trying to figure out server issues, css issues and how to create banners.

I just need to make money.

Posted in Children

Spring Flowers in February

aznos4040 — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 04:02:32 +0000

Header photo taken at the Texas AgriLife Extension Building while my kids and I were buying tomato plants. We are trying to grow a garden this year. We have spend way too much on dirt, seeds and seedlings.

We are still hopeful that the Katy soil will yield some type of crop.

Yippee!

Posted in Children

LG Shine (expenside makeup mirror): My New Phone Is Fixed

aznos4040 — Thu, 05 Feb 2009 06:45:12 +0000

LG Shine Fixed

My phone is back from the LG service center is no longer cracked like an egg. It is fixed. Now, I am too scared to used my talking make-up mirror…I mean phone. I do believe the phone is way too fragile for me and my lifestyle. The LG Shine is one of those phones for the cute sorority girls who carry their phone in a big handbag. I am going to only use the LG when I know I want to take some 2.0 megapixel pictures to send to my husband on the road. I will continue to use my husband’s 3 year-old Moto. That Moto is tough. I could put wheels on that puppy and call it a skateboard.

Thanks LG for the fast and prompt service. At least you did not hassle me. Your customer service department was courteous and fast. Kudos to the LG service center in Fort Worth, Texas.

Posted in Family Tagged: cell phone review, cutomer service, LG Shine, repairs, Reviews, service centers

LG Shine: My Opinion Before You Buy and Lipsticks Mirrors

aznos4040 — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 20:52:49 +0000

Bought phone after 3 years with old Sony cell phone. I could throw that phone into a brick wall and it would work. I owned the LG Shine 6 weeks. The screen cracked. I did not throw or mishandle. Is it coincidence? Mishandling on my part? Just bad luck? It is written?

I mailed phone to LG in Fort Worth. I will let you know what happened.

Phone is great if you need an extra mirror to put on lipstick. I was not happy with phone before it cracked. Now I am stuck for two years with a phone that is not really useful for a mom. I am not happy. The phone was free but I am locked into contract and broke. Victim of consequences or just a victim????

Here is crime:

Why does every LG crack in same place?

Posted in Family

ABC News: WWYD Baby In a Hot Car….So Houston

aznos4040 — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 20:43:03 +0000

Check out ABC New’s What Would You Do Series. I think the episode about the baby locked in a car is so Houston. If my memory serves me right there were about 2 cases of babies dying in hot cars last year in Houston. Maybe this WWYD do is too serious. It is like asking ” What Would You Do If You Saw A Murder Being Committed”. Babies in hot cars is too scary.

Here is the link:

http://abcnews.go.com/whatwouldyoudo

Posted in Family Tagged: abc news, baby, car, development, Houston, locked, op-ed, series, Texas, tv, What Would You Do